If you ever felt funny receiving Communion in your hand, standing up, rest assured you are not alone. You are perfectly allowed and encouraged to still receive Communion on your tongue and kneeling if you desire.
“Despite the widespread practice of Communion in the hand, the universal discipline of receiving Holy Communion on the tongue has not changed. A bishop, for example, may forbid the practice of Communion in the hand but not the practice of Communion on the tongue. The Church strongly encourages the latter but not the former. ” Fr. Richard Heilman
Read Fr Heilman’s article and learn why the Church began to allow Communion in the hand: TRUTH ABOUT COMMUNION IN THE HAND WHILE STANDING
William, it took me over twenty years to receive Holy Communion in my hands. When I was a kid in Catholic School, quite a bit was made by the Nuns of the Priest’s hands being consecrated.